I knew it was going to hurt but I never expected it to this extent. I've been upset, angry, confused, every negative emotion under the sun. Everyone says I'll get over it etc, but it's been nearly two weeks and the pain hasn't changed. It's worse first thing in the morning and last thing at night, sometimes I dream your lying next to me and reach out into nothingness. During the day I keep up this act of being okay, but as soon as someone brings it up, tears form in the corners of my eyes. I miss you, ache for you even but I know those fond memories will never return. Maybe I'm only hurting myself by hanging on to our memories, maybe I should just push you out of my life. But honestly I know I couldn't, you'd still be with me in my dreams.
I feel pathetic to be acting so desperately, I'm not sure if you even think of me now. I like to entertain the thought that perhaps you dream of me too. But I know that's just a thought, nothing more than a figure of my imagination, for you are much braver than me and are most definately coping better.
"I can't write a love song the way I feel today,
I can't sing no song of hope, I got nothing to say.
Life is feeling kind of strange, since you went away,
I sing this song to you wherever you are,
As my guitar lies bleeding in my arms."
- My Guitar Lies Bleeding In My Arms, Bon Jovi
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